ehsan gill

I fall into very bad habits when I write. I let the language of what I’m saying, the flow of the words stretch out in front of what I mean to say. I should instead make every word count. 

This one

No this one

Or these

Or maybe this one

Slow and steady, I should sketch out what I mean to say before I say it. What is the point of great twirls in superfluous language spilling out from the pressure valve in my brain when it doesn’t mean anything. Every syllable, every comma, semi-colon or full stop. Should. count.

Make it count

This would be one hundred and eight such words counted

No wait now one hundred and twenty five.

Shit one hundred and twenty nine

One hundred and thirty six

This could get out of hand- one four four

To make every word count means taking responsibility for what you are writing. Have a methodology or great underlying intention that is realised on the page. Have a direction in which the ideas are traveling. Instead of feeling like you're playing catch up to words splattered across a page. A great ejaculatory morass of pent up tension, the inevitable regret of the post script clean up.

See I’m doing it again

Im writing out what I think will sound good.

I don’t even know where this writing is going itself.

I very rarely do.